Monday, June 04, 2007

weary @ 2:13 AM

am kinda or rather very tired now. been out the entire day. but it's just such a weird feeling, cuz despite being with two of my closest friends i felt alone. despite the talking. laughing and singing it felt so quiet. despite all the conversations, i felt empty. it's not them that's for sure cuz i love their company and things would have been worse if i was literally alone.

so i guess it's me then.

i did laugh, smile and feel uplifted, but it was two phonecalls which made all the difference. it made me really smile and i don't know why, but i felt so touched i almost cried. so thank you for calling.

for now everything is stored behind the dam. i don't know if the dam and hold up much longer. it's cracked up (literally and figuratively). it managed to hold back the floodwaters for now, but how much longer can it withstand all of this? not much, not long.

Monday, June 04, 2007

weary @ 2:13 AM

am kinda or rather very tired now. been out the entire day. but it's just such a weird feeling, cuz despite being with two of my closest friends i felt alone. despite the talking. laughing and singing it felt so quiet. despite all the conversations, i felt empty. it's not them that's for sure cuz i love their company and things would have been worse if i was literally alone.

so i guess it's me then.

i did laugh, smile and feel uplifted, but it was two phonecalls which made all the difference. it made me really smile and i don't know why, but i felt so touched i almost cried. so thank you for calling.

for now everything is stored behind the dam. i don't know if the dam and hold up much longer. it's cracked up (literally and figuratively). it managed to hold back the floodwaters for now, but how much longer can it withstand all of this? not much, not long.