Monday, April 07, 2008

i'm F.I.N.E. @ 7:31 PM

things have been rough as of late.

stress from all walks of life and from every possible source is almost unbearable. but life goes on, like it or not.

i'm not the sort to get drunk, especially in public. come to think of it, i never even got drunk at home. maybe a little high after a considerable amount, but never drunk. that day i had much lesser to drink, but i drank it a whole lot faster than i should have.

i'm sorry you had to see me that way. it really isn't me and i don't know what got into me.

unlike what many may think, getting drunk doesn't help you to forget. all it does is make your head weigh such a tonne that you can barely stand up straight and walk, it causes respiratory distress and wells-up a whole bunch of emotions in you. perhaps the surge of emotions contributed to the respiratory distress. in any case, the emotions you feel can at some point become so overwhelming it feels like you're being torn apart, inside out.

the one good thing about getting drunk - your brain auto shuts down the moment you find that you're safely home and hit the bed.

it's tempting to re-experience the experience of not having a single thought on your mind as you lay yourself down to rest. then again, perhaps it isn't not having a single thought. it may be just an inability of the brain to process them.

drinks anyone? =P

Monday, April 07, 2008

i'm F.I.N.E. @ 7:31 PM

things have been rough as of late.

stress from all walks of life and from every possible source is almost unbearable. but life goes on, like it or not.

i'm not the sort to get drunk, especially in public. come to think of it, i never even got drunk at home. maybe a little high after a considerable amount, but never drunk. that day i had much lesser to drink, but i drank it a whole lot faster than i should have.

i'm sorry you had to see me that way. it really isn't me and i don't know what got into me.

unlike what many may think, getting drunk doesn't help you to forget. all it does is make your head weigh such a tonne that you can barely stand up straight and walk, it causes respiratory distress and wells-up a whole bunch of emotions in you. perhaps the surge of emotions contributed to the respiratory distress. in any case, the emotions you feel can at some point become so overwhelming it feels like you're being torn apart, inside out.

the one good thing about getting drunk - your brain auto shuts down the moment you find that you're safely home and hit the bed.

it's tempting to re-experience the experience of not having a single thought on your mind as you lay yourself down to rest. then again, perhaps it isn't not having a single thought. it may be just an inability of the brain to process them.

drinks anyone? =P