Sunday, September 06, 2009

life.. goes on... i guess @ 11:06 PM

after the last post. don't quite know how to carry on blogging. things are the same yet not the same. life goes on i guess... but no more saturday or sunday trips down to the east side to visit my ah gong, which means i don't see dad too. i don't really know what i miss. i can't say i enjoy visiting my ah gong down at the home. but visiting him did some times brighten up my day on the occasional time when he'd sorta respond to us. but more often than not, he didn't.

i guess it seems to most like we've all moved on. but i can't really get all of it outta my head.

anyway celebrated teachers' day last week. had a staff dinner on friday and school celebrations on monday. brought my camera to the dinner but didn't even take a single picture with it. took a number of shots with some colleagues though. As for monday i brought the camera around with me all day. but somehow never got down to taking it outta the case until i was more or less alone looking at what the kids got. took a few shots of the gifts. doubt i'll post them here.

i'm starting to doubt if i'm cut out for this. met up with a couple of friends whom i've known for over 10 years and told them about my plans in a couple of years. one asked if i was sure cuz she said she believes i like my job. well... i do like it. but it's not all about teaching. there're tonnes of other stuff to do. things i don't really care for nor find any interest in whatsoever.

i hate pretentious people, but i hate pretending to be what i'm not even more.

Sunday, September 06, 2009

life.. goes on... i guess @ 11:06 PM

after the last post. don't quite know how to carry on blogging. things are the same yet not the same. life goes on i guess... but no more saturday or sunday trips down to the east side to visit my ah gong, which means i don't see dad too. i don't really know what i miss. i can't say i enjoy visiting my ah gong down at the home. but visiting him did some times brighten up my day on the occasional time when he'd sorta respond to us. but more often than not, he didn't.

i guess it seems to most like we've all moved on. but i can't really get all of it outta my head.

anyway celebrated teachers' day last week. had a staff dinner on friday and school celebrations on monday. brought my camera to the dinner but didn't even take a single picture with it. took a number of shots with some colleagues though. As for monday i brought the camera around with me all day. but somehow never got down to taking it outta the case until i was more or less alone looking at what the kids got. took a few shots of the gifts. doubt i'll post them here.

i'm starting to doubt if i'm cut out for this. met up with a couple of friends whom i've known for over 10 years and told them about my plans in a couple of years. one asked if i was sure cuz she said she believes i like my job. well... i do like it. but it's not all about teaching. there're tonnes of other stuff to do. things i don't really care for nor find any interest in whatsoever.

i hate pretentious people, but i hate pretending to be what i'm not even more.